Trying to stay positive...

Just when I was feeling so positive about things, we get a note in the mail from our agency telling us to expect the wait time for our adoption to be between 18 to 24 months. Frick! From what point does that start?? Does that mean from the time we had started our homestudy? I am feeling so down about it now.

I suppose that the best thing to do is to keep busy and try not to dwell on the wait. Easier said than done. My goal to do the Half Ironman in June will keep me busy. But what comes after that? Running, running and more running.

I was going to start working on the nursery this winter, but now I am rethinking that. It might be difficult having to walk by the empty nursery day after day. But on the other hand it might just keep us looking forward to the say that our daughter comes home.

I know, I know. We knew going into this that it would be a roller coaster ride. I guess that I thought the ride up would last a little longer before we hit our first downward trip. Positive thoughts, anyone?

And as soon as I asked, my very dear friend G calls and gives me some very wise words of encouragement. No matter how long it takes, it means that our little one is the one that was meant for us to have. What is meant to be, is meant to be. I'm just such a control freak, that letting go to the universe is difficult.