And now, a word from our sponsor....

Ok, ok. It has been a while since my last post. I'm actully surprised that anyone takes the time to check in here from time to time. This was supposed to be a place for me to keep you all up to date with any news about the adoption. Well, there isn't much going on in that department. So, perhaps I will just bore you with tidbits from daily life. How would that be?

I'm sitting here, trying to keep busy. My legs are killing me from last week's FULL ON training sessions. And, as often happens when I am doing nothing in particular, I start to evaluate things. Today, I am evaluating my training. I'm looking for the "fun factor" to be exact. I'm afraid that the fun which I set out to have in training for this Half Ironman is being clouded with a whole lotta seriousness. Now don't get the wrong idea. I respect the event and the amount of training that needs to be done to get across the finish line without too much of a grimace on my face. But I seem to have been lured into a lot of time goals for this and that, and worrying about comments from the peanut gallery about why my recent race times are what they are. Why am so concerned about how far ahead I might be of so and so, or what so and so said about this and that?? WHO CARES! I have to bring it all back to the reason that I started this journey. And that is to do something that in my mind is monumental, and feel good about the accomplishment.

Geeeeze...I think I'm tired. I just read that back, and it reads like the rantings of a madwoman! So what is the solution? Take charge of my training again. Listen to my body and be firm in what I want to do with my training from week to week instead of falling into the trap of doing what I think is expected of me. I guess that sometimes I live in a dreamworld where I can not only "talk the talk" but I can also "walk the walk". Reality check. I must remember my place in the grand scheme of things.

That is my rant for the day. Discuss.